I keep debating about whether to change the focus of this weblog. I’ve tried to make it about words and politics and pop culture, because those things interest me and I can write reasonably intelligently about them.
I don’t have much personal stuff, or stuff about my day, on this page. I don’t know if it’s all that interesting, and I find the other stuff more compelling and easier to write about. And then I go to other people’s weblogs, and they get 25 comments on a post about problems with their catbox or something.
I’m sure comment numbers don’t really mean anything (Wil Wheaton gets 94 comments when he blows his nose), but I keep wondering if the stuff I go on about is interesting or entertaining to anyone. And I’ll admit, despite myself I get a little jealous when I see high comment numbers on other people’s pages.
People always say, oh, I do this for myself. I don’t care if anyone reads it. But are those of us who say those things just lying to ourselves? How much are we writing to please ourselves, and how much are we writing to please an audience – one we don’t know much about? This blogging thing is strange. It’s like performing in a play through a virtual reality suit.
Just a mini motivational crisis. It’ll pass.